I just woke up and can't go back to sleep. Last night was very traumatic. For those that don't know I worked 22 hours yesterday. I can't give details, but what I saw makes me really question if we, as a society, are doing enough to protect our children.
I do the best job I can to protect the children I serve, but sometimes, things are taken out my control, and I am left to trust God. It should be me trusting God first, but I admit I am only human and a stubborn human at best.
I sometimes wonder if what I am doing makes an impact on the children I serve. I question at the end of the day if I had done my job with excellence. I question if I have served God in a way that God should be served. I question if I had honored him with the gifts he has given me and honored him for the privilege I have to step into the lives of families and take part in making what is broken whole again.
I woke up a little numb this morning. I couldn't sleep, so I made my way into the living room. I noticed the mail sitting on a chair and I saw a letter with my name on it. Out of curiosity I picked it up, opened it, and pulled out the card. The card was from my family at NorthWood Church. It was filled with prayers and encouragement. One of them wrote, "Do what God has called you to do, keep doing it, don't stop!" These words particularly, mean a lot to me because they were written by a friend I share leadership with. More than that, I really needed to hear it. I have no intention of stopping what I am doing, but it's encouraging to hear these words and have the support I have.
It's more encouraging to know that God knows our needs and he knows the best time to fulfill those needs. I worship a God who loves his children. I worship a God who, when I was a child, protected me in such an amazing way. When CPS didn't come, he was faithful to send a Christ-filled woman to our home and tell us about the love of Jesus. This love of Jesus changed my family, and it set the course for my destiny. This love that God has given me, I want in every way possible, to give it to others.
Thank you for your prayers and support. Together, we are making a difference in the world, one child at a time. Let's press on and not give up, because God will supply all of our needs.
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." -Galatians 6:9